Looking In From The Outside

Looking InMost people who know me well would most likely agree that over the past several years I have had more than my share of challenges. A few days ago I was driving my truck on a local road with very little traffic. Since I did not have to be as focused, or frustrated, on the other vehicles and their drivers, I was afforded the luxury to think about several problems from a detached point of view (you could call it thinking outside the truck). As I analyzed each problem I came to realize that I could make a choice between continuing to fight the battles, which takes a lot of energy, or accept them for what they are and just enjoy living in the moment. Through these series of thoughts I experienced a paradigm shift. I was looking into the window of my life with a tangle of vines obscuring the view but I was also seeing the challenges in a new light. The problems are still complex, with some more painful than others, and some don’t seem to have an easy solution.

I work in a job where I am constantly solving problems. I have been blessed with the ability to take an idea sketched on a napkin and turn it into a machine. For over 32 years I have worked as a draftsman and mechanical designer. During this time I have worked on the cutting edge of science and have helped design machines to allow scientists to conduct experiments that at one time were impossible. At the same time I have always put my family before my job but due to this type of work, at times it is impossible not to think about a challenging design after I have left work for the day.

As a designer it is important to be able to work with people who each have their area of expertise. I take interpersonal relationships very seriously. I absolutely despise conflict and the drama that comes along for the ride. I will go to great lengths to avoid an argument. I know for a fact that this is a character trait that is wired into my very being. When I find myself in the middle of conflict, it becomes a challenge for my brain to find a solution that restores peace. But I am learning that some problems cannot be solved no matter how much I try to fix them. At some point I have to let go and trust God to work through the heart of others, and myself, to repair a broken relationship. I am learning that only when I let go can I find peace and happiness.

3 thoughts on “Looking In From The Outside

  1. This photo is so moving and goes with your words so well.
    I will keep you in prayer. It is easy to say I will trust in the Lord and his plans. Sometimes you have to give it over hundreds of times a day. Blessings.

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  2. I just love this: “Through these series of thoughts I experienced a paradigm shift. I was looking into the window of my life with a tangle of vines obscuring the view but I was also seeing the challenges in a new light.”

    The imagery of your words (and the photo you used in the post) is just perfect.

    If you are able to ‘accept things as they are and just live in the moment’, then kudos to you Patrick. That is something I still struggle with a lot. Working on it. But it sure is hard.

    Good luck with your journey.

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