30 Day Reflection

Prepare plans by consultation,
And make war by wise guidance.
He who goes about as a slanderer reveals secrets.
Therefore do not associate with a gossip.
~ Proverbs 20:18-19 ~

It has been a very stressful, yet fulfilling, 30 days. On June 17th, I arrived at work to discover that the hard drive in my computer decided to checkout. Fortunately my IT savior was able to recover the boot sector so that I could recover the data before the hard drive was replaced. My backup computer (vintage 2008) was no longer supported by my IT department so I was on my own. To make matters worse, I was working on three different projects which all had the same priority: hurry up and get it done. The next ten days included an email addressed to me that ended up three levels above my supervisor and then came back down to me with a visit from my division leader. Everyone of my managers were “pissed off” by the emails content. Fortunately all of my managers appreciated the fact that I responded in a professional manner instead of getting into a war (I talked myself through the carefully worded response).

When my computer returned with its new solid state hard drive, it only had the company wide image loaded. Another week was spent restoring files, loading software, and trying to put out fires from my three different projects. And to add insult to injury, I had to learn how to install the complex program that I use in my design work. In the mean time the fires still burned out of control. It is now July 17th and I just finished three frustrating weeks of trying to combine 3 databases and extraneous files into the product database management system (PDMS) where all my work is stored. Some of these files already existed in the 3 different databases but the engineer, the one who sent the infamous email who pissed off all of my managers, decided the data was safer on his backup hard drive. The PDMS does not like it when files are removed, changed, and then an attempt is made to put them back into the system. When the last file was uploaded without an error message, I suddenly felt tired…still six hours to go in my day.

While all this was happening at work, I get an email with a much-anticipated document. The final dissolution of my 28.5 year marriage was over. The first emotion was relief followed by a trip to the benefits office. I was required by law to drop the mother of my children, who walked out of our marriage, from my medical insurance. Not an easy thing to do to a cancer survivor but that is Family Law in California. A good friend warned me that my “last divorce blog post” would not be the last (at least it is now just a paragraph).

I recently saw Toby Mac at Spirit West Coast and today as I was uploading the last of my many files, a song by TM titled “Gone” filled my head and the following lyrics stood out: “You never know whatcha got till it’s gone.” As I pondered these words, I concluded that gone is not always a bad thing. It is Friday!!! Time to decompress and enjoy the weekend!

Footnote: To those who have complained about my posts about the dissolution process, if you don’t like what I write, then don’t read my blog. My freedom of speech is protected by the Constitution of the United States of America.

8 thoughts on “30 Day Reflection

  1. It reminded how my husband tried to recover his stuff… He had two PCs one to check the files line by line. Yours sound even more complicated… Enjoy the weekend. 🙂


    1. Yes. I ended up paying my attorney to argue with the opposing attorney for my “freedom of speech which is protected under the First Amendment of the United States Constitution”.


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